Day 8th...

Day 8th after dear goes back to hometown...

Time pass really slow without dear. I just like lost my direction and don't know what I should do. Everything seems to be so messy. I used to the life with dear. I used to rely everything on dear. I used to seek dear's opinion in everything. I used to do everything with dear's presence. Dear is just so important for me. Till i feel like everything is given and forget to be grateful and appreciate what I have sometimes. Ya. I still can call and message dear. We still under the same sky, same world, same country. Is just that not the same state. Want to reach dear also not that hard. But I can't feel dear, can't touch dear, can't smell dear, and also can't hug dear. There are movies when heroin miss hero till see people around her like the hero. I felt so funny last time and thought all this will not happen in real life. But it has really happen to me last few days. I was waiting bus and I started to see everybody there looked like dear. Unbelievable? Ya. Even dear also thought I was kidding when I told this to him. I really miss dear till gonna crazy...