A cruel punishment...

It's really something cruel to hear a mother to say they are not a family because of a trip. It's not that I don't wan to follow, but I really do not wish to go for a "family trip" with an outsider. Addition, there are a lot of things waiting for me to do. It's my mid term next week, but I haven't study till now. I really do not have the mood. How can I have mood when heard something like that from my own mother? Dear keep on asking me not to be sad. So, I threw back a question to dear and asked him, will he feel sad if his mother told that to him? He was silent. Who can actually treat like nothing happen after heard that phrase from own mother? And this is not the first time. I cried. Every time when it comes to my mind, my will tears drop. Am I that not worth to be loved? Did I done something so wrong and deserve all this as a punishment? I would really rather stay alone at rental house than come back to home that full with people but without love...