AGAIN???

Another few days, dear got to go Ipoh again.
Yes, dear got to go to outstation again.
Dear needs to spend 1 month there this time.
I really can't believe that my life turn out like this.
I totally don't feel like doing anything and stick with dear 24hrs/7days.

Finished my practical report,
but still got a lot works to do.
But I just don't feel like doing anything right now.
If can, I just hope that can spend all my time with dear before he goes to Ipoh.
But can I do that?

Still got another 2 days, then school is reopen.
And it's time to back to work.
I really don't have the mood to go back to work anymore.
I'm so useless and irresponsible.
But I really hope to stay beside dear only.

How come suddenly become so belangkai?
How come I become so useless?
NO! NO! NO!!!
Ivy cannot be like this.
Wake up Ivy.
Be tough.
I cannot be beaten so easily...

Time to make decision...

1 week holidays has been passed.

Have to back to work after 3 more days.

My holidays have been contributed to doing report.

Haven't do exam paper and planning for concert dance.

My holidays like nothing.

Luckily not too bad as still can spend the time with dear.

Went to college to hand in my practical report today.

Asked about the degree course.

They cheated me.

They didn't give any scholarship as they promised.

RM26.9k!!!

Where should I get so much of money?

Very angry at first.

But the advantage is I won't bound with any contract.

Nor got to work with them with a certain years after graduate.

But they said I will definitely get a job with at least RM2.2k after I graduate.

Or even more if I work at private school, maybe around RM2.5k.

But this college always cheat me.

Should I believe them again?

Thought of consider other college.

But afraid that my diploma won't be accepted by the other college.

Dear said continue with this college.

If the other college don't recognize my diploma, then i would have to pay more

and need more time to study as I can't exempted from the first year.

Dear also said it's very good if they promised me with a job after i graduate.

No matter how is the college, what we want is a job only after graduate.

Even some said Segi College is not good, but still many of them get a job.

So, what is good or not is not what we can say.

Really depends on the employer.

Really dislike making decision.

I'm not a good decision maker.

I rather people tell me what to do and I just follow.

I always make the wrong decision instead.

The orientation will be this Saturday.

I should make up my mind by this few days.

So, what should I do now?

My holidays...

Finally, holidays are here.

Has spent few days together with dear. 

We went to Malacca to find Michelle and...

her new born baby, Tan Meng Yi. 

Spent 2 days and 1 night there. 

A very precious days together with dear...

But happy moment always pass really fast.

Has back to home now.

Got to continue with my report. 

Has late to hand in. 

Hope won't affect my marks.

Very lazy...

Anyway, I still think that is worth.

Nothing more important than dear.

Can spend the time with dear bring my days become brighter.

Every minutes and seconds with dear is so meaningful.

Sounds so useless like I can't live without dear.

But in fact, I really can't live without dear already...