Will gone crazy soon...

Really hate myself sometimes. Always being not patience and hot-tempered. Just want to chat with dear but end up fight with him. Didn't see him for a week already. I know I should appreciate the time with him even just on the phone, yet just can't stop myself from angry with him. After a moment, when I think back, myself will wondering too why am I angry with him. Not his problem of course. What happen to me? Having multiple personality? Will gone crazy soon. Or  maybe I am already crazy...