I am so tired...

Breathing has suddenly become so difficult to me. My heart feels so painful. Eyes is so swollen after cried for 4 days. I really hate people point to my nose and scold me with something that I never do before. Dear keep persuading me that his brother does not know anything that his girlfriend did to us. But the truth has showed me that he know everything. He surely at his girlfriend's side. He said just "treat as" that is their fault and he willing to apologize to me. What means by "treat as"? If that is their fault, means that is. If that is not their fault, means that is not. There is nothing "treat as" in my dictionary. Furthermore, apologize is not what I want to hear. I just want dear's brother listen to what his "lovely" girlfriend had did to his own brother, my boyfriend. But he refused to hear. He said what is passed, is passed. He does not what to mention anymore. He does not want to mention anymore or he afraid to know his girlfriend's real face behind her mask. Their action are so sickening. They even message and "sincerely" apologize to us. I do not need all that. They blamed dear for being rude and slammed the door when the first time she went to their house. Even dear has forgot about this. Dear just woke up that time. They want him to laugh like crazy when he just woke up? I bet if they can do it. His girlfriend complained about my dear in front of me. I had apologize to her on dear's behalf because do not want to bring that problem so serious. That incident had happened 3 years ago and she still angry with it. Unbelievable? I gave her a present when her birthday last year. She just said, "Oh" instead of say thanks. But I am really fine with all that until his girlfriend watched movie in the brothers' room and on the volume till so loud till dear could not concentrate and study, and dear end up had to study in my room. I had been really patience all this while because I do not want to put dear into a hard situation, and this is all what I get. They shoot everything back to us. They blamed dear for being rude, and slammed the door. They blamed dear for take knife when fought last time. This had happened decade before and yet still got such people and still keep it in heart. But we know that dear did the wrong first, so we did apologize too. What else they want from us? They even blamed me for complaining in my facebook. Hey! That is my facebook profile. I have the right to write anything I want. I did not add any of them, and I also did not wrote their name. What for they being so excited and admitted that? And I do not welcome them to my facebook also. He said I am rude to say all this to people? Why he so scare when I am just there to tell the truth? He said those comments from my friends who backup me is over. Of course my friends will backup me. She is the one who did it wrong, and I cannot control what people want to comment. And all this is none of their business. His girlfriend wrote on facebook to complain about me, nothing is wrong. But when I wrote to complain in facebook, that is my fault. His girlfriend is human and I'm not? His girlfriend has freedom to talk and I do not have? What kind of earth are they in? They even blamed me for promised to stay with the girl, but did not make it. It happen 1 year ago. i wished to move out so much also. But mom did not let me to that time, and forced me to stay at hostel. I explained to his girlfriend that time. She said it is fine, and never mind that time. And now she wants to take everything out to complain? They have no better excuses for their bad attitude, so take everything out to blame dear and I? Then, they message dear and I, it said they did not put all that in heart anymore and do not understand why we still mention about it, and sincerely apologize to us. After they had done so much of things to us, this is what they means by they did not put it in heart anymore. This is to show how nice they are and how stupid am I? Should I be happy that my mom did not let me move out that time, so I need not to stay with such person. They are so fake. Should I be happy that my boyfriend is dear and not the brother? He is so "blind". I can stand everything she did to me, but I cannot stand when she did that to dear over and over. i really cannot stand when people bully someone I love, no matter is dear or my mom. I am so tired together with dear. Not because of dear is bad, but he is just too nice. Everybody wants to bully him, no matter my sis or his brother and his girlfriend. Break up this word comes to my mind sometimes, but I really do not want to let dear go just because of all this people. But until when I can stand all this? I really do not know. Love is really something very sweet, and sad at the same time.